Sierra-maria Magdalena's Page

in the pulse what are we really feeling? at whatever level; whether choppy, tight, slow..before it is all those things...it is something else....the movement, the rhythm is......captivating, sensual, mesmerizing.....as though some primordial and celestial force reaches out to us from beyond the beyond....that the blood moves through the vessels, not the blood itself....that the heart thrusts, pumps the blood from its chambers, not the heart itself....it is the movement - that which courses the movement and thus is born through otherwise lifeless matter - it mates.... the dynamic interplay of the blood parts and tissues means that the pulse is a portal - that when we feel it, feel the blood under our listening fingers, we are making contact with every square inch of the body before us......rest a while and close your eyes.......feel your heart beating.....feel the blood coursing into the aorta and through the large vessels of your thighs, legs, feet......follow the path of blood though the vessels of your arms, hands, neck, face......maybe you feel pulsations in your fingers...belly....let your awareness of the blood relax and be opened into the capillaries....feel the warmth, the aliveness in your flesh....fat, muscles, skin....qi blood, shen travel in all these areas, nourishing, receiving, returning......once we become viscerally aware of this dispersal of qi, blood, shen, we can begin to more fully understand the vastness of the pulse beneath our fingers..............when i place my fingers on the wrist of the one before me.....when the lovely rhythmic wave of their blood spreads over my fingers....they enter me....and i them....or maybe we meet somewhere outside ourselves.... the blood wave spreads over my face and into my heart and i am pulled in....embraced by spirit...when we feel the pulse we feel the blood, yes, and the vitality and strength of the organs and body qi.....but also.....if we soften and listen.....we may perceive a glimpse of the forces that brought life into this being.....their ancestors....the energies/spirits that surround them...their relationship with world.......woven into our studies of wiry, slippery, choppy we can feel the pulse of a being, now and then, and allow ourselves to become lost in the universe of their aliveness.....